i need to vent.
the other night i was sitting at starbucks, doing some homework.
in the background i hear the barista say, "would you like some hot water?" like she had a "usual" customer at the counter... she knew what he wanted.
i looked up to see a homeless man standing by the counter. his eyes were heavy. his clothes were torn. his coat needed to be washed. his backpack was stuffed full. he never said a word - not one word. he nodded at the barista and she was very, very nice to him.
she carefully poured some hot water into a large coffee cup, placed a coffee cozy over the cup and handed it to him. - "have a nice night, sir." he nodded in appreciation and walked out of the coffee shop.
my immediate reaction (once i realized what was going on) was to buy him something to eat/drink. i rattled through my huge purse and finally found my wallet. -- he was already walking out the door.
my eyes started to well up. i was about to start crying at 9pm in a starbucks. whaaaaat?
my heart was aching. i was too late.
i should have stood up - ran after him, maybe.
i was so upset. i realize this happens all the time. i realize he is not the only homeless man in lincoln, nebraska. i realize lincoln, nebraska, has very low poverty levels - and i also realize that there are people much worse off. -- but none of that swayed my emotions in that moment.
i immediately texted danny because i was just so upset. he knows i have a sensitive heart when it comes to situations like this. he reassured me that i cannot help everyone - i know this.
yes, i may not know his story... but do i have to? is it necessary?
anyway, back to my point.
i need to be more humble.
i am going to try not to complain about my non-smart phone... i do not need an iphone.
i am going to try not to complain about my car... it gets me to where i need to go and thats all that matters.
i am going to try not to complain about school/homework... it is leading towards a degree - something that a lot of people can't afford/attain.
i am going to try not to complain about my old camera/be jealous of those with new DSLRs... my baby D40 gets the job done.